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Whither

I find myself in the backwoods of Monroe on a Sunday before band rehearsal, overlooking a basin of standing water with no obvious outlet to the myriad running streams that run down Webb Mountain to Lake Zoar and the Housatonic River. A day after my Chiron return, it seems an …

In search of a mountain

  In the name of God, stop a moment, cease your work, look around you. — Lev Tolstoy   Now that I’m about to receive the Master level attunement, I wonder if I’m already seeing things more clearly than I did even two months ago. I’ve been beset. My parents, …

Bloodletting, part deux, euh, trois, quatre…

After the gig last night, our lead vocalist sat at the bar, sipped at her glass of red wine, turned to me seated on the stool to her right, and said, “You really need to get laid.” The guitarist, sitting at her left flank, nodded. I, pulling at my Guinness …

Next stop: Mastery

I guess the big news on this thide of sings is that yesterday evening I laid out a 50% down payment on the cost to become a Reiki Master/Teacher. As agreed upon by me and Jane, my teacher, at some point in the very near future, I’ll receive the final …

Turn around

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWxm5YRmzEU Something about this song has always haunted me. Before any wiseasses pipe up, I’ll mention here that I’ve never seen any of the Final Destination movies, one of which apparently made arguably effective use of this track. Specifically, this version of this song haunts me. I’ve heard the original …

Venus Square Saturn

From astro.com: A radical reappraisal On this day you will probably have difficulty relating to others, feeling cool and reserved even toward those you love. The problem is that you will have to spend today reevaluating what you are getting out of your relationships and what you are putting into …

Tonight when I chase the dragon

Deep in meditation Monday evening, I received a vision of two figures in silhouette, wrestling, struggling. I saw that one had the other in a sleeper hold; however much the other struggled, the wrestler with the advantage would not allow his victim merely to submit; he wanted to inflict great …